I don’t know if I will ever be “okay”. Well, as far as society’s definition of what “okay” means, I guess. Does okay mean never feeling down, lost, hopeless? Does okay mean living a life of perfect equilibrium, knowing that there will always be ups and downs? The downs, the sadness that I am talking […]
The Invisible Child – Siblings of the Special Needs / Mentally Ill child
When there is a special needs or mentally-ill child in the family, the impact on the well sibling is often not seen or understood. It is brushed aside with the focus being centred on the affected child and its parents / caregivers instead. “As a child I tried desperately not to have a problem because […]
Depressed or just moody?
The other day, I was feeling out of sorts. Nothing major, just been a week of nothing much progressing on the work front. And for someone who still (mis)places her identity on her accomplishments, believe me, it can put a cloud over your head when you feel like you haven’t achieved anything for that day […]
Symptoms of Schizophrenia (my experience with my brother)
Schizophrenia is a disorder of fragmented mental processes. It is NOT split personality. It is a disease of the brain. Sufferers interpret reality abnormally. These are a few symptoms: 1. Hearing voices. Sufferers hear voices. No, not like you and I who hear our inner critic or champion. They literally hear voices in their heads. […]
The hardest thing for a parent to do
I remember the day my mother had to leave my brother in the then Woodbridge hospital. I remember her coming home, sobbing and saying something to the effect of “I’ve gone and done it. I’ve done it.. I’ve done it…” She wasn’t saying that to me, but I was nearby, listening. She would have been […]
Why is everything so heavy?
I remember the moment when I heard that the frontman of Linkin Park, Chester Bennington had killed himself. I was holidaying in Norway, it was bright and sunny at 12 midnight on account of it being summer and the sun never setting. Hubby and I were having a couple of drinks when I heard this. […]